If you were to ask me to pick the most autistic thing about myself, it would probably be a tie between sensory issues, and executive dysfunction. Unlike the sensory stuff, which I’ve always known I experienced differently than other people, I had never heard of executive dysfunction until about two years ago, when I was pursuing a formal diagnosis. I had always thought I was lazy, and unorganized, and an A+ procrastinator until the psychologist interviewing me started asking me all of these questions about how I learned, and how I retained information, and how I motivated myself, and after about 20 more minutes worth of questions, she informed me that I exhibited signs of Executive Dysfunction. Which I promptly went home and googled, because those aren’t two words you hear together very often. After inhaling everything the Internet had to offer, I was immediately relieved. I wasn’t lazy. ‘Smart but lazy’ had basically been my go-to identity for most of my life, but I had no reservations setting it aside. After a week of basking in my new ‘not lazy’ personality, I realized that not being lazy was great, but now that I had a word for what was wrong with me, I should probably figure out what to do about it.
Oh and do something I did. Many somethings, in fact. More than would be humane to tell you about in one post. So my plan is to break it down into a few posts. The first one, you may have seen on the blog already, it’s a page called Theme Week Outlines, and it was one of the first things we tried, and it’s still going strong! I also plan to include a post of Executive Dysfunction Hacks, a post showing how I use my Bullet Journal to keep myself calm and organized, and post talking about how having 3 whiteboards for calendars, lists, and reminders is definitely not too many. I’m slowly learning how to do executive dysfunction things on my own, but I’ve got to give credit to my wife, Jess, for enduring years of questions about how she breaks things down into steps, and how she makes lists, and what do you mean she can decide she wants to do something and just do it?!
I’m hoping to spread these posts out over the next month or two, so as not to inundate you with all executive dysfunction all the time. If there is any interest, I may host a Ask An Executive Dysfunction Superstar type thing where Jess can answer all your weird and random questions. Because I swear, I have never met anyone (not even my occupational therapist!) who is more creative about this sort of problem solving. So please, come pick her brain!